YOUR MOVE NOW

  BITTER SWEET 

“The passport.... passport ... passport” ,

I reiterated as I organised all my luggage before boarding to airport. I stepped in an elevator and pressed down its button only to witness Aadh blocking the door from shutting close. He looked at me and smirked with corners of his lips turned up and teeth brimming with pride. He felt a sense of achievement just by delaying me and getting to be with me for few extra seconds. I walked a step towards him and saw reflection of me in his eyes as he cupped my waist with his palms and drew me closer. He tilted his face a little to his left and patted down sugar dust on my shoulder. I thought, 

“Really, Aadh ? You had to pat that off passionately ? ”, 

looking at his pursed lips and eyes. He had his way of letting me yearn him. I felt a forever in that second. 

Stepping down a flight of stairs, we discerned this was our last few minutes together until next time. I clenched my fingers tight, fretting the reality wherein I won’t be able to feel his cheeks against mine for the next few months. I understood that I started missing him; missing us already. Loading up the hood with luggage, we got in the car and drove to the airport. 

“ Aadh, I think you have misrouted ”,

I said to him with a puzzled face seeing it was taking us unusually long to reach the spot and to which he replied,

 

“ I wish! I wish I get lost with you. You wouldn’t have a choice to leave me then. You’d be stuck with me. We could be.... I will be happier then”. 

"Aadh.... Aadh.... Aadh... I cannot go to my place when you are tearing up, Aadh.  You tell me. Shall I stay ? Shall I stay one more week with you ? I will be staying with you. Are you happy now? ”, 

I exclaimed. 

“Nooo...  hon. You don’t have to”,

 he said. 

“I want to, Aadh. I long to be with you too. I could smile a little wider seeing you laugh at petty jokes. I could look at your face each morning. I could breathe your sweat after we play fight. I could lay on you and forget the world. I could live the world of us which I have created in my head. I could beat the pain I suffer from being away from you. I could feel you in my palms every time I wish. I could be more cheery me and a less of me down at the thought of your absence. I wouldn’t have to sleep visualising you instead I would be able to roll over, reach your chest and embrace the warmth. I could love you however I wish to. I cannot be without you, Aadh, no matter how hard I try to stay blind to this fact. Aadh... I crave to be with you. I need us a little more than I need me sometimes",

I confessed as he pressed his foot against the brake lever to pull up at the airport. 

We teared up as we walk down the corridor and reached the queue line. Waiting in the line, I recognised how badly I want to be with him. I fidgeted and looked at him seeing me. He was near yet so far. He tried to cover up his emotions behind his smiles so I wouldn’t find this hard. I picked up my luggage and ran towards him screeching the roller suitcase onto the smooth floor. 

“I cannot do this, Aadh!! Please don’t force me to leave”,

I  sobbed , embracing him tight. 

“Arshiii...", 

he chuckled as he lifted me up. 

" We are going home. You don’t have to leave. You don’t have to be away from me. You don't have to sleep with heavy heart when I am here dying to be with you. You don't have to miss me when I am crying the nights wishing you had been here in in my arms than to have to see you on my  laptop monitor. I want to kiss you each night for real instead of loading our chat with GIFs and emojis. I want to be able to touch your hair and pull it; get you angry and pounce at me as I lie flat on the couch with you top trying to fight me hard with your baby soft hands that I hold with mine, as you give up slowly and lay down over me. If I say, this is not what I want, I will be deceiving myself",

 he expressed while we walked to the parking lot with glee.

We reached home to witness something unimaginable the next day. Turning on the Tv, the news headlines read ,

 " 7 killed, including state lawmaker as two planes collide in Alaska." 

We exchanged glances and awed at the odds of the same  happening to us had I had boarded the flight. Is this why they say 'love saves us'? I gasped as he held my foot; glided his fingers through it from heel to toe; grabbed my waist; lifted me and made me sit on his lap. 

Love has it way to bring everything together. But that isn't enough in the longer run. Efforts play crucial role. You might love a peaceful world but putting in no efforts for establishment of the same will cause no good. Love is an essential nutrient but not the entire diet. Make your move for good. Do what's good for earth;for lives on earth; for the lives that are breathe now and for the ones that are about to be in years from now.